yes.
it is.
life have been crazy.
at least for me.
i run like a tornado (yes i'm exaggerating)
yet i still can't finish any job.
life have been bad.
car's loan.
car's bad scratches.
accident.
car's summons.
work.work.work.works.
work can never end.
i know that.
but at least make it reduce.
lappy.
broken.
damage.
not working.
Aria.
missing.
broken.
unreachable.
no credits.
I am absolutely extremely stressed out!
oh. btw, it's ramadhan now. welcome ramadhan. i wish life is quieter.
(love? there is none. just ignore all those signal. i hate that)
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Friday, July 27, 2012
Thursday, April 26, 2012
trying to catch up with life...
I am trying to catch up with life that have been put on hold for too long.
Doing things that I wanted to do so much.
Trying to catch up on my reading.
Trying to catch up on my exercise.
Trying to keep up with the greenery.
Trying to catch up my breath.
Trying to look up more on the sky and the stars above.
I am trying to finish up my job, even though I know it's impossible.
(but at least I try)
I try to look at some advertisement,
(for house, job, education..)
I am trying to learn some new skill
I am trying to do what I plan to do before, but have no time to do so.
I try to buy the comic, and catch on the cartoons
I try to buy a magazine, and read more.
Life have been put on hold.
I need to do a lot of catch up.
Before I see it passed me by...
Doing things that I wanted to do so much.
Trying to catch up on my reading.
Trying to catch up on my exercise.
Trying to keep up with the greenery.
Trying to catch up my breath.
Trying to look up more on the sky and the stars above.
I am trying to finish up my job, even though I know it's impossible.
(but at least I try)
I try to look at some advertisement,
(for house, job, education..)
I am trying to learn some new skill
I am trying to do what I plan to do before, but have no time to do so.
I try to buy the comic, and catch on the cartoons
I try to buy a magazine, and read more.
Life have been put on hold.
I need to do a lot of catch up.
Before I see it passed me by...
Sunday, April 22, 2012
my luggage don't want to go back. it actually want to stay in Hong Kong
Caller: Hello. Ms Chuah Nordiana Busero ke? I'm calling from the airport
Dari Shanghai, flight yang sepatutnya bertolak pukul 12.25 delay sampai hampir pukul 4 petang.
Dalam flight duduk in the middle seat, takde makanan apa-apa. tak boleh bergerak. Bila flight akhirnya take off, dia bagi food option pork with rice or chicken with pasta. omg! apa nak pilih nih? mesti la takde apa2 so I was left with no option. Makan je the pasta without the chicken plus the carrot plus the peas. then there's some bread. and some fruit. and some desert.
Sampai Hong Kong kena gegas gegas lari pegi terminal 19 oh my! sebab terminal tu letaknya di hujung donia! penat sungguh berlari lari bila sampai punya la ramai beratur so kitorg duduk dulu. penat lari woooo!
Aku nampak kedai makanan so untuk mengelakkan perkara serupa berlaku, maka aku pun pergi cari sandwich. kedai kopi esp jual kopi harga 20 dan sandwich harga 26... sebab aku tak sempat nak tukar duit hong kong, jadi aku tanya the cashier boleh tak pakai credit card, tapi kan aku dah berjanji dgn diri sendiri untuk kurangkan penggunaan duit future tuh kecuali betul betul penting. lepas tu nampak duit yuan dalam tips, so aku tanya lady cashier tu lagi.
"Can I use Yuan?"
"Can but only in 100 and above, and we only return in HK dollars. is it ok for you?"
kebetulan dalam dompet magis aku cuma ada duit RMB100 x 3 je. jadi aku kata ok.
Beli smoked salmon sandwich dgn air juice sebab dahaga sangat berlari.
Dalam flight yang akhirnya kami berjaya naiki tuh, kena duduk in the middle between aisle seat and window seat. huhu... menyesal pulak tak ambik offer chuah utk duduk kat window seat.
Dalam flight, captain kata flight akan delayed lagi sebab busy air traffic. yelah, sebab bnyk sangat delayed semua kena tunggu semua org lain, dan bila nak fly dah congested la jadinya.
Akhirnya pukul 7.30pm kitorg berjaya take off meninggalkan bumi hong kong yang aku cuma berjaya pijak airportnya. Hujan masih turun dengan agak lebat. bumpy ride all the way.
Ada sepasang couple mat salleh depan kitorg yg aku tak pasti dr mana atau nak ke mana, tapi dia tanya diorg sempat ke nak sampai KLIA sebelum pkl 10 sbb diorg ada another flight to catch at 10.30pm at KLIA. pity pity. mesti la tak sempat punya.
Ok, to cut short the story at the momment, kitorg sampai KL dalam pukul 11.00pm dan aku terus je keluar tak sempat pun nak cakap bye bye kat Chuah sebab dia dok tepi sekali susah nak kuar aku kena kuar bagi org jalan dulu baru dia oleh bangun amik beg.
Sampai KLIA, aku baru tau beg aku tak naik flight dari Hong Kong dan akan naik the next flight. marah betul! Then bateri handphone abis, handphone satu lagi dalam luggage dan aku baru ingat kunci rumah juga dalam luggage! oh no! macamana... kena sambung bahagian lain pulak...
Me: ......err... yes..
Caller: You punya luggage dah sampai ni, jadi kita nak arrange hantar pegi mana ye?
Me: dah sampai ye? Bila boleh hantar? Bila boleh sampai? Hantar rumah PJ lah.
Caller: Ok, PJ ke? Baik kami akan hantar tengahari nanti.
Me: A'ah. Bila boleh dapat ye?
Caller: Hari ni, tengahari kita hantar.
Me: Boleh cepat sikit tak? Saya nak keluar nanti. Saya ada barang penting dalam tu!
Caller: Apa barang penting?
Me: err... berus gigi..
hehe.. ok ok aku tipu je part last tuh.
Tapi memang ada banyak barang penting dalam beg luggage aku. Paling penting, kunci rumah! macamana aku nak kuar masuk kalau takde kunci kan?
well, ini cerita betul.
Semalam adalah pengalaman delayed paling stressful yang aku lalui setakat ini.
Flight aku dari Shanghai pukul 12.25 tengahari. Kami bertolak dari hotel pukul 9.30 pagi (9.40 sbnrnya).
Selepas pung pang pung pang camtu camnih, sampai dah check-in dekat airport shanghai, dan naik flight pukul 12.25 pm.
Flight aku dari Shanghai pukul 12.25 tengahari. Kami bertolak dari hotel pukul 9.30 pagi (9.40 sbnrnya).
Selepas pung pang pung pang camtu camnih, sampai dah check-in dekat airport shanghai, dan naik flight pukul 12.25 pm.
Dari Shanghai, flight yang sepatutnya bertolak pukul 12.25 delay sampai hampir pukul 4 petang.
Dalam flight duduk in the middle seat, takde makanan apa-apa. tak boleh bergerak. Bila flight akhirnya take off, dia bagi food option pork with rice or chicken with pasta. omg! apa nak pilih nih? mesti la takde apa2 so I was left with no option. Makan je the pasta without the chicken plus the carrot plus the peas. then there's some bread. and some fruit. and some desert.
Sampai Hong Kong kena gegas gegas lari pegi terminal 19 oh my! sebab terminal tu letaknya di hujung donia! penat sungguh berlari lari bila sampai punya la ramai beratur so kitorg duduk dulu. penat lari woooo!
Aku nampak kedai makanan so untuk mengelakkan perkara serupa berlaku, maka aku pun pergi cari sandwich. kedai kopi esp jual kopi harga 20 dan sandwich harga 26... sebab aku tak sempat nak tukar duit hong kong, jadi aku tanya the cashier boleh tak pakai credit card, tapi kan aku dah berjanji dgn diri sendiri untuk kurangkan penggunaan duit future tuh kecuali betul betul penting. lepas tu nampak duit yuan dalam tips, so aku tanya lady cashier tu lagi.
"Can I use Yuan?"
"Can but only in 100 and above, and we only return in HK dollars. is it ok for you?"
kebetulan dalam dompet magis aku cuma ada duit RMB100 x 3 je. jadi aku kata ok.
Beli smoked salmon sandwich dgn air juice sebab dahaga sangat berlari.
Dalam flight yang akhirnya kami berjaya naiki tuh, kena duduk in the middle between aisle seat and window seat. huhu... menyesal pulak tak ambik offer chuah utk duduk kat window seat.
Dalam flight, captain kata flight akan delayed lagi sebab busy air traffic. yelah, sebab bnyk sangat delayed semua kena tunggu semua org lain, dan bila nak fly dah congested la jadinya.
Akhirnya pukul 7.30pm kitorg berjaya take off meninggalkan bumi hong kong yang aku cuma berjaya pijak airportnya. Hujan masih turun dengan agak lebat. bumpy ride all the way.
Ada sepasang couple mat salleh depan kitorg yg aku tak pasti dr mana atau nak ke mana, tapi dia tanya diorg sempat ke nak sampai KLIA sebelum pkl 10 sbb diorg ada another flight to catch at 10.30pm at KLIA. pity pity. mesti la tak sempat punya.
Ok, to cut short the story at the momment, kitorg sampai KL dalam pukul 11.00pm dan aku terus je keluar tak sempat pun nak cakap bye bye kat Chuah sebab dia dok tepi sekali susah nak kuar aku kena kuar bagi org jalan dulu baru dia oleh bangun amik beg.
Sampai KLIA, aku baru tau beg aku tak naik flight dari Hong Kong dan akan naik the next flight. marah betul! Then bateri handphone abis, handphone satu lagi dalam luggage dan aku baru ingat kunci rumah juga dalam luggage! oh no! macamana... kena sambung bahagian lain pulak...
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Life is just like Coffee..
"Kopi itu umpama satu kehidupan.
punya rasa pahit manis nya.
jadi kamu.. ya kamu...
mahukah kamu menjadi sebahagian kopi ku?"
Sunday, March 11, 2012
sudah lah, aku benci dia!
aku benci dia.
benci kalau aku asyik ingat pada dia.
benci tunggu panggilan atau sms dari dia.
benci kalau dia buat aku gelak.
benci kalau aku rindu dia.
benci betul.
paling benci.
bila dia buat aku rasa suka, rindu dan gembira dengan dia.
pada masa yang sama,
tak ingat pada aku, tak sms aku, tak call aku.
(benci betul)
benci kalau aku asyik ingat pada dia.
benci tunggu panggilan atau sms dari dia.
benci kalau dia buat aku gelak.
benci kalau aku rindu dia.
benci betul.
paling benci.
bila dia buat aku rasa suka, rindu dan gembira dengan dia.
pada masa yang sama,
tak ingat pada aku, tak sms aku, tak call aku.
(benci betul)
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
page 31 of 366
gara-gara cik shadow aku terpaksa bangun lebih awal dari sepatutnya,
terpaksa lapar,
terpaksa korban tido,
terbaksa buat kerja yang banyak giler macam 18 tan atas bahu.
hari ini aku merajuk dgn dunia
dan orang orang sekeliling aku.
tapi dunia tak ada yang mahu pujuk aku pun.
****************************************
Ok, aku dah ada buku wimpy kid 1, 2 (rodrick rules) & 3 (the last straw)
jadi aku kena ingat buku mana yang perlu aku beli dengan voucer kema & adik...
Friday, January 27, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
366 - 19.01.2012
Kitorg ada boss baru, group baru, section baru...
rupa-rupanya ada banyak cerita di sebalik kehadiran semua yang baru-baru belaka nih.
Ramai yang suka, dan ramai yang tak suka.
Aku berkecuali sebenarnya, sebab pada aku siapa-siapa pun boss dia mesti kena jadi boss lah.
Jangan la, tidak adil, corupt, tidak berkaliber, dan sebagainya (sehingga menjejaskan peluang kerjaya aku)
tapi gambar hari ni langsung takde kaitan dengan cerita di atas.
gambar ni pasal mayorship aku.
Hari ni aku jadi mayor kat tempat yang langsung aku tak pernah jejak kaki.
Haha...
In the race of finding success, we always forget to find happiness - me
rupa-rupanya ada banyak cerita di sebalik kehadiran semua yang baru-baru belaka nih.
Ramai yang suka, dan ramai yang tak suka.
Aku berkecuali sebenarnya, sebab pada aku siapa-siapa pun boss dia mesti kena jadi boss lah.
Jangan la, tidak adil, corupt, tidak berkaliber, dan sebagainya (sehingga menjejaskan peluang kerjaya aku)
tapi gambar hari ni langsung takde kaitan dengan cerita di atas.
gambar ni pasal mayorship aku.
Hari ni aku jadi mayor kat tempat yang langsung aku tak pernah jejak kaki.
Haha...
In the race of finding success, we always forget to find happiness - me
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
366 - 170112
I wish I have HELP function in life also.
So whenever I am facing problem and meet dead-end, I can just click this function.
I do, I do wish for this.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
project 366
aku baru lepas tgk satu facebook / blog sorang girl nih.
dia buat project 365 hari.
then thn ni 366 hari.
it hit me then.
it is a leap year this year.
aku lupa.
lepas tu aku ingat,
aku nak post satu gambar atau entry setiap hari.
(ni dah 17 January nak post apa nih? gambar pun dah terlepas)
takpe, kat facebook mungkin ada.
huhu.
*excited*
dia buat project 365 hari.
then thn ni 366 hari.
it hit me then.
it is a leap year this year.
aku lupa.
lepas tu aku ingat,
aku nak post satu gambar atau entry setiap hari.
(ni dah 17 January nak post apa nih? gambar pun dah terlepas)
takpe, kat facebook mungkin ada.
huhu.
*excited*
writer? maybe u should pass.
malas lah.
malas betul nak menulis report.
ada hati nak jadi penulis?
well, maybe you should pass.
malas betul nak menulis report.
ada hati nak jadi penulis?
well, maybe you should pass.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
good nite world...
Have you seen sunset from highest mountain?
I haven't.
But a sunset is still a sunset from anywhere you see it.
 |
| Sunset, somewhere between Guangzhou to Malaysia, 2011 |
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
jiwa jiwa
macam jiwa-jiwa bila lepas baca buku zahiril adzim.
baca blog orang-orang art.
aku,....
orang yang macamana?
yang aku cari....
apa?
baca blog orang-orang art.
aku,....
orang yang macamana?
yang aku cari....
apa?
Thursday, December 1, 2011
taipei, 101 - Nov-Dec 2011
yes, I am in Taipei now, today.
Taipei nampak hujan dalam 2-3 hari nih.
Aku tak pasti lagi macamana Taipei, tapi aku akan explore dalam 1 hari nanti.
Sekarang stress sebab keje tak boleh buat, badan penat, mata mengantuk, dan tak tau macamana nak mula.
Semua sebab orang lain.
Yang boleh aku buat sekarang cuma bersabar...
oh, and I think I'm running out of time.
its either now or I shall just run away.
Maybe stay in other country or something like that.
I'll definetely consider that...
Taipei nampak hujan dalam 2-3 hari nih.
Aku tak pasti lagi macamana Taipei, tapi aku akan explore dalam 1 hari nanti.
Sekarang stress sebab keje tak boleh buat, badan penat, mata mengantuk, dan tak tau macamana nak mula.
Semua sebab orang lain.
Yang boleh aku buat sekarang cuma bersabar...
oh, and I think I'm running out of time.
its either now or I shall just run away.
Maybe stay in other country or something like that.
I'll definetely consider that...
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Extremely busy time of all time (this was originally post on 21 Nov but it didn't come out)
I am not sure whether it is or not. But it really does feel so.
And yet I agree to help other people. Am I insane?
I can't properly sleep, I can't properly rest, I can't properly eat.
The workload keep coming, yet the money keep thinning.
I seems to lost the purpose and my goal.
I have no social life.
I lost my love interest.
I can't keep track of time, day, date.
I keep losing thing, missing thing, I keep forgetting things...
I didn't work out as I have no time.
I don't go catch movie and have nice meal.
I didn't manage to catch up with friend.
Yet I have very low pay, no bonus, a lot of debt.
Sometimes I wonder what am I doing here.
I wish I can enjoy life again. And enjoy the nature again...
And yet I agree to help other people. Am I insane?
I can't properly sleep, I can't properly rest, I can't properly eat.
The workload keep coming, yet the money keep thinning.
I seems to lost the purpose and my goal.
I have no social life.
I lost my love interest.
I can't keep track of time, day, date.
I keep losing thing, missing thing, I keep forgetting things...
I didn't work out as I have no time.
I don't go catch movie and have nice meal.
I didn't manage to catch up with friend.
Yet I have very low pay, no bonus, a lot of debt.
Sometimes I wonder what am I doing here.
I wish I can enjoy life again. And enjoy the nature again...
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
...love is
He said that love has many forms
He said that love has many faces
He said there are many ways of loving
He said, love does not means to own
He said... He'll be happy to see me happy
Even that means that he'll lose me
Even that means that I'll belong to somebody else
I used to cry to this confession
Today I don't.
.
.
.
.
I guess that the feeling has faded.~~
"Am I being mean, leaving him when he need me the most...?"
He said that love has many faces
He said there are many ways of loving
He said, love does not means to own
He said... He'll be happy to see me happy
Even that means that he'll lose me
Even that means that I'll belong to somebody else
I used to cry to this confession
Today I don't.
.
.
.
.
I guess that the feeling has faded.~~
"Am I being mean, leaving him when he need me the most...?"
Thursday, November 3, 2011
busy busy busy busy busy busy
busy sampai takde masa tengok muvi
busy sampai takde masa nak jalan-jalan
busy sampai takde masa nak foya-foya
busy sampai takde masa lepak dgn kawan-kawan
busy sampai takde masa tido
busy sampai takde masa nak masak
busy sampai lupa nak makan
busy sampai lupa telefon emak
busy sampai malas nak kemas bilik
busy sampai malas nak basuh baju
busy sampai takde masa nak pegi bank
busy sampai lupa nak beli contact lens
busy sampai takde masa nak beli kasut baru
busy sampai lupa hari
busy sampai nak order room service je
busy sampai tak sempat nak mandi
.... huhu...
busy sampai takde masa nak jalan-jalan
busy sampai takde masa nak foya-foya
busy sampai takde masa lepak dgn kawan-kawan
busy sampai takde masa tido
busy sampai takde masa nak masak
busy sampai lupa nak makan
busy sampai lupa telefon emak
busy sampai malas nak kemas bilik
busy sampai malas nak basuh baju
busy sampai takde masa nak pegi bank
busy sampai lupa nak beli contact lens
busy sampai takde masa nak beli kasut baru
busy sampai lupa hari
busy sampai nak order room service je
busy sampai tak sempat nak mandi
.... huhu...
Monday, October 31, 2011
...it's written on the wind...
I don't know if I have any guts left
After you leave me.
I don't know if I could feel anymore
After you leave me.
I don't know if I could love anymore
After you leave me.
I don't know if love really exist
After you leave me.
Then I found light
Then I woke up
Then I think, life does not end here
and I become stronger than ever
I promise that I'll never ever cry again
for somebody like you
or for anybody...
And then one day.....
you call.
does it make me feel better?
note: does it make me feel better? winning? to find out you life isn't much easier? does it make me feel better to learn thet you are leading a terrible life? I don't know.
but it doesn't end, cause I'm stronger now, no matter how difficult it is to move on, it is always more difficult to carry on.
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