life have been craaaaaaazzzyyyyyyyy.....

yes.
it is.
life have been crazy.
at least for me.

i run like a tornado (yes i'm exaggerating)
yet i still can't finish any job.
life have been bad.
car's loan.
car's bad scratches.
accident.
car's summons.

work.work.work.works.
work can never end.
i know that.
but at least make it reduce.

lappy.
broken.
damage.
not working.

Aria.
missing.
broken.
unreachable.
no credits.

I am absolutely extremely stressed out!

oh. btw, it's ramadhan now. welcome ramadhan. i wish life is quieter.

(love? there is none. just ignore all those signal. i hate that)

Life is just like Coffee..

"Kopi itu umpama satu kehidupan. 

punya rasa pahit manis nya. 

jadi kamu.. ya kamu... 

mahukah kamu menjadi sebahagian kopi ku?"

jiwa jiwa

macam jiwa-jiwa bila lepas baca buku zahiril adzim.
baca blog orang-orang art.

aku,....
    orang yang macamana?

yang aku cari....
    apa?

taipei, 101 - Nov-Dec 2011

yes, I am in Taipei now, today.

Taipei nampak hujan dalam 2-3 hari nih.

Aku tak pasti lagi macamana Taipei, tapi aku akan explore dalam 1 hari nanti.
Sekarang stress sebab keje tak boleh buat, badan penat, mata mengantuk, dan tak tau macamana nak mula.

Semua sebab orang lain.
Yang boleh aku buat sekarang cuma bersabar...

oh, and I think I'm running out of time. 
its either now or I shall just run away.
Maybe stay in other country or something like that.
I'll definetely consider that...

busy busy busy busy busy busy

busy sampai takde masa tengok muvi
busy sampai takde masa nak jalan-jalan
busy sampai takde masa nak foya-foya
busy sampai takde masa lepak dgn kawan-kawan
busy sampai takde masa tido
busy sampai takde masa nak masak
busy sampai lupa nak makan
busy sampai lupa telefon emak
busy sampai malas nak kemas bilik
busy sampai malas nak basuh baju
busy sampai takde masa nak pegi bank
busy sampai lupa nak beli contact lens
busy sampai takde masa nak beli kasut baru
busy sampai lupa hari
busy sampai nak order room service je
busy sampai tak sempat nak mandi


.... huhu...

...it's written on the wind...

I don't know if I have any guts left

After you leave me.

I don't know if I could feel anymore

After you leave me.

I don't know if I could love anymore

After you leave me.

I don't know if love really exist

After you leave me.

Then I found light

Then I woke up

Then I think, life does not end here

and I become stronger than ever

I promise that I'll never ever cry again

for somebody like you

or for anybody...

And then one day.....

you call.

does it make me feel better?

note: does it make me feel better? winning? to find out you life isn't much easier? does it make me feel better to learn thet you are leading a terrible life? I don't know.

but it doesn't end, cause I'm stronger now, no matter how difficult it is to move on, it is always more difficult to carry on. 

my confusion, your doing

this thing I wanna know.

I've accept that this is just a temporary
I've accept that this feeling is not mutual
I've accept that I might have thought wrongly
I've accept that you actually treat others the same way, maybe better
I've accept that I am not an important figure to you, and maybe you to me...

But..

Why do you have to seems to care to what I do?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I write?
Why do you have to seems to care to where I post my photo?
Why do you have to seems to care to how I live my life?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I eat?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I think?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I feel?
Why do you have to seems to care to where was I at certain time?

Why do seems to know as if you follow what I did?

Just stop all that and I'll be fine.
Cause I'm born to survive.
Cause I'm not born to make others suffer.
Cause I'm not born to depends on others.
Cause I'm born to make others smile.
all the people around me.

Even if it makes me cry...

player

I want to sit on the sidelines and watch.

I want to do nothing but sit, and watch.

You.

And them.

In silent.

This is just a game I cannot lose.

And I can't wait for Monday...

This was few days ago.

It was how it is in my head.

But I guess it was just that.

And it's gone.

And I'm ok.

Then you come to see me on Friday.

demmit.

life's like that

It's 2.45am on a monday morning. and i'm still awake.
frankly, I'm not really sure what am I doing. From what I see there isn't so much productive things which I did.

Only, it bothers me so much, and I need to let it out somewhere.

[
Didn't watch the football game today but I just know the score.
Well, first point for Kenny Danglish. And yet another boring unbeaten game for ManU (yawn..)

ASIAN game seems interesting, but I would prefer to watch from afar. (I don't have paid cable TV station to watch. cough).
]

I hope I can wake up early tomorrow as There's tonne of works waiting for me!
I hope I have all the strength, and able to cope up with everything....
Works is killing me nowadays, but the pay is more. I keep thinking of the way to compensate for that, and I think I should try harder this year.
2011, I hope all the good thing happen this year.
Amin..