life have been craaaaaaazzzyyyyyyyy.....

yes.
it is.
life have been crazy.
at least for me.

i run like a tornado (yes i'm exaggerating)
yet i still can't finish any job.
life have been bad.
car's loan.
car's bad scratches.
accident.
car's summons.

work.work.work.works.
work can never end.
i know that.
but at least make it reduce.

lappy.
broken.
damage.
not working.

Aria.
missing.
broken.
unreachable.
no credits.

I am absolutely extremely stressed out!

oh. btw, it's ramadhan now. welcome ramadhan. i wish life is quieter.

(love? there is none. just ignore all those signal. i hate that)

trying to catch up with life...

I am trying to catch up with life that have been put on hold for too long.

Doing things that I wanted to do so much.
Trying to catch up on my reading.
Trying to catch up on my exercise.
Trying to keep up with the greenery.
Trying to catch up my breath.
Trying to look up more on the sky and the stars above.

I am trying to finish up my job, even though I know it's impossible.
(but at least I try)
I try to look at some advertisement,
(for house, job, education..)
I am trying to learn some new skill
I am trying to do what I plan to do before, but have no time to do so.
I try to buy the comic, and catch on the cartoons
I try to buy a magazine, and read more.

Life have been put on hold.
I need to do a lot of catch up.
Before I see it passed me by...

Life is just like Coffee..

"Kopi itu umpama satu kehidupan. 

punya rasa pahit manis nya. 

jadi kamu.. ya kamu... 

mahukah kamu menjadi sebahagian kopi ku?"

and I'm asking who's the one making the life complicated

whatever.

366 - 19.01.2012

Kitorg ada boss baru, group baru, section baru...
rupa-rupanya ada banyak cerita di sebalik kehadiran semua yang baru-baru belaka nih.

Ramai yang suka, dan ramai yang tak suka.
Aku berkecuali sebenarnya, sebab pada aku siapa-siapa pun boss dia mesti kena jadi boss lah.
Jangan la, tidak adil, corupt, tidak berkaliber, dan sebagainya (sehingga menjejaskan peluang kerjaya aku)

tapi gambar hari ni langsung takde kaitan dengan cerita di atas.
gambar ni pasal mayorship aku.

Hari ni aku jadi mayor kat tempat yang langsung aku tak pernah jejak kaki.
Haha...

In the race of finding success, we always forget to find happiness - me

366 -180112

The self-assured

(budak-budak sekolah sekarang lunch dekat johnny's!)

Sent from my HTC

366 - 170112

I wish I have HELP function in life also.

So whenever I am facing problem and meet dead-end, I can just click this function.

I do, I do wish for this.

160112 (day 1)

twenty 12

(160112)

new book. 

new note.

new beginning.

project 366

aku baru lepas tgk satu facebook / blog sorang girl nih.

dia buat project 365 hari.
then thn ni 366 hari.

it hit me then.
it is a leap year this year.
aku lupa.

lepas tu aku ingat,
aku nak post satu gambar atau entry setiap hari.
(ni dah 17 January nak post apa nih? gambar pun dah terlepas)
takpe, kat facebook mungkin ada.

huhu.

*excited*

good nite world...

Have you seen sunset from highest mountain? 

I haven't.

But a sunset is still a sunset from anywhere you see it.

Sunset, somewhere between Guangzhou to Malaysia, 2011

jiwa jiwa

macam jiwa-jiwa bila lepas baca buku zahiril adzim.
baca blog orang-orang art.

aku,....
    orang yang macamana?

yang aku cari....
    apa?

Life Crisis

ok.

I'm confuse.

I'm consider fat in Korea,
but I'm thin in Taiwan.

So, where do I range in Malaysia?

*damn, i really need to run, or jog, or hike, or bike, or swim, or whatever exercise I can do.
cause I can't fit into some of my old pants.

..round and round...

looking for a song but I have no clue of the title, singer or even the full song.
it has some lyrics which is like this...
"...and we will go round and round, go round and round....."


any idea?


quite old song, but i just can't get it my head.


note: yes, it may have some meaning and story behind it. and there's actually another song almost similar to this, but different. that, is just another different story.

busy busy busy busy busy busy

busy sampai takde masa tengok muvi
busy sampai takde masa nak jalan-jalan
busy sampai takde masa nak foya-foya
busy sampai takde masa lepak dgn kawan-kawan
busy sampai takde masa tido
busy sampai takde masa nak masak
busy sampai lupa nak makan
busy sampai lupa telefon emak
busy sampai malas nak kemas bilik
busy sampai malas nak basuh baju
busy sampai takde masa nak pegi bank
busy sampai lupa nak beli contact lens
busy sampai takde masa nak beli kasut baru
busy sampai lupa hari
busy sampai nak order room service je
busy sampai tak sempat nak mandi


.... huhu...

...it's written on the wind...

I don't know if I have any guts left

After you leave me.

I don't know if I could feel anymore

After you leave me.

I don't know if I could love anymore

After you leave me.

I don't know if love really exist

After you leave me.

Then I found light

Then I woke up

Then I think, life does not end here

and I become stronger than ever

I promise that I'll never ever cry again

for somebody like you

or for anybody...

And then one day.....

you call.

does it make me feel better?

note: does it make me feel better? winning? to find out you life isn't much easier? does it make me feel better to learn thet you are leading a terrible life? I don't know.

but it doesn't end, cause I'm stronger now, no matter how difficult it is to move on, it is always more difficult to carry on. 

my confusion, your doing

this thing I wanna know.

I've accept that this is just a temporary
I've accept that this feeling is not mutual
I've accept that I might have thought wrongly
I've accept that you actually treat others the same way, maybe better
I've accept that I am not an important figure to you, and maybe you to me...

But..

Why do you have to seems to care to what I do?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I write?
Why do you have to seems to care to where I post my photo?
Why do you have to seems to care to how I live my life?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I eat?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I think?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I feel?
Why do you have to seems to care to where was I at certain time?

Why do seems to know as if you follow what I did?

Just stop all that and I'll be fine.
Cause I'm born to survive.
Cause I'm not born to make others suffer.
Cause I'm not born to depends on others.
Cause I'm born to make others smile.
all the people around me.

Even if it makes me cry...

player

I want to sit on the sidelines and watch.

I want to do nothing but sit, and watch.

You.

And them.

In silent.

This is just a game I cannot lose.

pretender

I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like it's all a dream and pretend like it's not hurting me. Let me be a great pretender, this time! ;) 

absolutely random

Happy 100th Birthday Mary Blair.

I don't know who you are but I am sure you are somebody

or else, what for the put your birthday on Google's doodle today. 

For that, I adore and respect you.

Note: I really really want to be able to put my name on the map, on the history.

For the good thing of cause.

Cool!

kalau kerja dengan spec hitam cool jugak hari nih!

kerja menimbun, mata tak boleh bukak. haishh!!