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busy sampai takde masa tengok muvi
busy sampai takde masa nak jalan-jalan
busy sampai takde masa nak foya-foya
busy sampai takde masa lepak dgn kawan-kawan
busy sampai takde masa tido
busy sampai takde masa nak masak
busy sampai lupa nak makan
busy sampai lupa telefon emak
busy sampai malas nak kemas bilik
busy sampai malas nak basuh baju
busy sampai takde masa nak pegi bank
busy sampai lupa nak beli contact lens
busy sampai takde masa nak beli kasut baru
busy sampai lupa hari
busy sampai nak order room service je
busy sampai tak sempat nak mandi


.... huhu...

...it's written on the wind...

I don't know if I have any guts left

After you leave me.

I don't know if I could feel anymore

After you leave me.

I don't know if I could love anymore

After you leave me.

I don't know if love really exist

After you leave me.

Then I found light

Then I woke up

Then I think, life does not end here

and I become stronger than ever

I promise that I'll never ever cry again

for somebody like you

or for anybody...

And then one day.....

you call.

does it make me feel better?

note: does it make me feel better? winning? to find out you life isn't much easier? does it make me feel better to learn thet you are leading a terrible life? I don't know.

but it doesn't end, cause I'm stronger now, no matter how difficult it is to move on, it is always more difficult to carry on. 

my confusion, your doing

this thing I wanna know.

I've accept that this is just a temporary
I've accept that this feeling is not mutual
I've accept that I might have thought wrongly
I've accept that you actually treat others the same way, maybe better
I've accept that I am not an important figure to you, and maybe you to me...

But..

Why do you have to seems to care to what I do?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I write?
Why do you have to seems to care to where I post my photo?
Why do you have to seems to care to how I live my life?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I eat?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I think?
Why do you have to seems to care to what I feel?
Why do you have to seems to care to where was I at certain time?

Why do seems to know as if you follow what I did?

Just stop all that and I'll be fine.
Cause I'm born to survive.
Cause I'm not born to make others suffer.
Cause I'm not born to depends on others.
Cause I'm born to make others smile.
all the people around me.

Even if it makes me cry...

player

I want to sit on the sidelines and watch.

I want to do nothing but sit, and watch.

You.

And them.

In silent.

This is just a game I cannot lose.

pretender

I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like it's all a dream and pretend like it's not hurting me. Let me be a great pretender, this time! ;) 

And I can't wait for Monday...

This was few days ago.

It was how it is in my head.

But I guess it was just that.

And it's gone.

And I'm ok.

Then you come to see me on Friday.

demmit.

absolutely random

Happy 100th Birthday Mary Blair.

I don't know who you are but I am sure you are somebody

or else, what for the put your birthday on Google's doodle today. 

For that, I adore and respect you.

Note: I really really want to be able to put my name on the map, on the history.

For the good thing of cause.