It's time to close the old book and write new story

Yes it is.

I'm going to forget about you.
I'm going to focus on things that make me happy.
I'm going to focus on work.
I'm going to focus on success.
I'm going to focus on hiking.
I'm going to focus on study.
I'm going to focus on travelling.

I'm going to forget about you.

I'm not going to contact you.
If you contact me then its ok. But other than that, I won't.

I'm going to tell my story online.
So people won't know how my feeling is.
So I can mask my feeling easily.

I don't have to guess what you think.
I don't have to be awkward in front of you. I just have to ignore you.

I'm just going to focus to be happy.

If I find another person on the way, I'll just be myself.

I am just going to focus to be happy.
With myself.

(No half of my heart does not belong to you anymore. I take it back)

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Damn you.

Hati sakit betul.

Benci aku rasa. Kerja, life, love. Him, them. Stupid.

I ask something important and you don't answer. And yet, you have time to comment something to your friend photo.
Okay, so somebody is pretty. So somebody is singing nicely.
So I actually means nothing to you kan?
I better make a distance from you.

Driving konon.
Huh! But you can reply people comment. And say some people pretty or what.
Fine! Not talking to you anymore.

And work! Damn the work. Damn the workplace.
Damn the system.
Damn everyone.
I work like no tomorrow and for what.
Damn everything.
And what about my pay? What about my bonus?
Damn everything.

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Hai, nama saya orked..

Hai..

Sy orked.

Saya cuma perlu cari sepet saya je..

(and I know, I just afraid to let somebody get too close. Because I'm afraid of getting hurt. Again)



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sudah lah, aku benci dia!

aku benci dia.
benci kalau aku asyik ingat pada dia.
benci tunggu panggilan atau sms dari dia.

benci kalau dia buat aku gelak.
benci kalau aku rindu dia.
benci betul.

paling benci.
bila dia buat aku rasa suka, rindu dan gembira dengan dia.
pada masa yang sama,
tak ingat pada aku, tak sms aku, tak call aku.

(benci betul)

I miss u demmit

I miss U.

There I said it.

Demmit.

How does this happen.

(I really really really hope that u do too)

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Numb

I wanna stop thinking.

Can I stop everything, and do nothing.

What is happiness. What is it that I'm looking for. I hate the feeling of not knowing.

I am not sure what exactly am I feeling right now.

I wish I am stronger than this.
I wish I am firmer than this.
Not even a smile can move me. Not even a thing.

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Straight from the eyes...

I remember I was sitting right across him, and he ask me question.

I look him straight to his eyes, and think. Wah, his eyes is so brown. Much more lighter brown than mine. It is always this brown.

Then I look away.

And it seems to bother me all day.

(and I secretly wish him to contact me, for whatever reason)

-d.yanz, Monday 5 March 2012, 23:50-

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